I will be closing my Tumblr account. My transition is on its way, my coming out too. Family is aware, loving and supportive. Friends slowly learn about it. I dont want to be associated with sissy stuff anymore. One of them being: killing my sex drive. On the other hand, not having a sex drive confirms that my will to be feminine does not come from that and it lets me concentrate on more important stuff. I shopped a lot and now have a decent casual wardrobe.
I take time to be myself and it feels really good. I have my first appointment with the therapist the 23rd… it is stressfull, but I need to do this. Sorry if I have been silent lately.
Good question! First off, I have to warn you guys, I will be blunt in that post, even though I will try no tu burned anyone with personal issues unrelated to my presence on Tumblr. Before I answer, I will need to give you…. I started my journey here as a wanna-be sissy crossdresser. Before that I had been exploring my kink for lingerie and womens clothes, but at some point I needed some acknowledgement of my feminity. At some point I realized people had trouble using the hashtag system to find my pics, so I started this blog, biancariversonly , to post only about me.
It happened after I had one of my first encounters with a guy who filmed me getting fucked by him multiple times. The moment I stepped out in the street as a girl felt like opening the curtains of a dark room for the first time in a very long time. It felt natural, easy and just… normal. Like it was meant to be like that. Dressing up started to become something more than just the kink of the clothes and the taboo most people associate to it.
I used to want to stay hidden, but at that moment I started to feel the need to come out, be seen, be looked at, feel like a girl, like a person. I havent turned PMs off on any of my blogs… and a lot of guys come talking to me. Some of them are gems! They know themselves because I told them they are nice persons. They have actual conversation and treat me like a human being.
On the other hand, the majority come to me for the sexual side of things. Because that label comes with a lot of assumptions about what I should be and what I should like. Stuff like humiliation, degradation… it doesnt work with me. Girls are amazing. Girls are beautiful. Girls are more emotional and I have always felt closer to them since I was a kid. I do have a life, a career, friends, family… like anyone else!
Because I am a person! So maybe some people noticed, but I slowly started distancing myself from the sissy thing. Wait… Trans? Yes, trans! It is what it is! I accept it, I want to talk about it, i want to come out to the world, mostly to my family, but all in good time! I will not stop posting kinky pictures, but I might eventually close down my other blog, biancasissy , to get away from that label.
About the fact that I acknowledge being trans now, but I still want to post kinky pictures of myself. I know it doesnt help our image that is already too often associated with porn and prostitution. It shows especially when you talk to people online: they stop talking after you send them a few exclusive pics and they came, just like they do with a porn website. On the other hand, I like posting pics and videos online. I always enjoyed porn and always fantasized about doing homemade videos, so I finally did it.
It makes me feel great about myself when I read the comments, as if it was a sign that I am on the right track to become what I would like to be. In conclusion! I will keep doing what I do! I still plan on showing my face when this blog reaches followers. I totally apologize to any trans woman that feels offended by what I do. I will do my best to at least keep it classy :. Message of general interest! I plan on having some fun on camera tonight!
Which toy should I feature for you guys? Most popular answer wins! Posts Likes My Pics! Closing this account… I will be closing my Tumblr account. I need to make myself real. Stay tuned! About me…. Please check out my short film!!! Only a minute long I put a lot of effort into it so like and share if you can!!!!
A very intense minute…. Some news! So what is up with me? Before I answer, I will need to give you… Some backstory! After that, I started going out in public and it all changed in my mind from that moment on. Why is it a problem? It is to be decided. I do have mixed feelings… About the fact that I acknowledge being trans now, but I still want to post kinky pictures of myself.
Especially the last one for me please…. Dick clean. Help me answer this question! Recently Liked.